I want to hide...

[alectoperdita]

I hate feeling tired all the time.  It's ridiculous since I get a decent enough amount of sleep compared to some of my peers (probably due to the fact I do less work than them...).  Yet it seems I only spend about 1/4 of the day, or even just my life, fully awake or alert.  Consequently, nothing I do ever seems good enough or even enough.  I know I should work harder.  I know I should be doing better.  I whine too much and can't seem to keep my mouth shut even knowing so.  As people have been kind enough to point out in the past in a rather succinct manner: I suck.

Here's a song for having to deal with my inferiority issues.  Sometimes, this one helps me feel just a bit more awake...

Sounds of Life (Feat. Jasmine Yee) by Pendulum

It seems like you're waiting for nothing,
Looks like time had deleted it all,
It may be everything that could have been was thrown away,
So just take what is left, and somehow fill the space,
When I can see through it, oh I feel safe again,
I feel warmer...

Sounds of life outside
Why do I retire
Sounds of life outside
One by one...
Got nothing to hide...
One by one

Couldn't have seen it come, from an inch away,
But it's here, right on time,
Wait for the flash of grey and we will feel the same,
If we can just drift for a while,
When I'm back on the ground I feel safe again,
I feel warmer...

Sounds of life outside
Why do I retire
Sounds of life outside
One by one...
Got nothing to hide...

Sounds of life outside
Why do I retire
Sounds of life outside
One by one...
Got nothing to hide...
One by one