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alectoperdita) wrote2007-01-26 12:33 am
alectoperdita) wrote2007-01-26 12:33 am
These muddled days
It's been snowing the last few days straight. I'm not really sure if the psychological effects are real or imagined. It's become hard to concentrate on my work, which is frankly ridiculous since I'm only taking 4 classes this semester (even if there's a decent amount of reading). I really need something to kick start me, but I'm hard-pressed to find it. No matter how much I sleep, I'm always tired.
So I registered for the Employment Opportunity Conference (hurray, no full suit requirement!), but I don't know if I would actually attend. I feel...unemployable... Maybe I am worrying about it too early. Yet at the same time I know I've been taking a very passive approach to my life since starting college. I've always been slow to get into the flow, but... It may be time to do a bit of rearranging. Time to start working out again, set up appointments, get out more (though that may prove to be the hardest), and get involved with organizations. I'm tossed around the idea of writing again, fanfics and the likes. I didn't get much when poking at some of the old incomplete stuff though. It feels like the effort is for naught though. Damn disparity between expectation and reality.
Guess all that's left to be seen is if my new cactus or I wither first.
So sleep now. Tomorrow: make appointments, class, work, meeting, homework, ALINCA, Late Night, and please Goddess, a bit of alcohol to finish off the night.
P.S. While I am aware I am fortunate compared to many people, I can't bring myself to appreciate that fact. Another item to add to the list of failures.
So I registered for the Employment Opportunity Conference (hurray, no full suit requirement!), but I don't know if I would actually attend. I feel...unemployable... Maybe I am worrying about it too early. Yet at the same time I know I've been taking a very passive approach to my life since starting college. I've always been slow to get into the flow, but... It may be time to do a bit of rearranging. Time to start working out again, set up appointments, get out more (though that may prove to be the hardest), and get involved with organizations. I'm tossed around the idea of writing again, fanfics and the likes. I didn't get much when poking at some of the old incomplete stuff though. It feels like the effort is for naught though. Damn disparity between expectation and reality.
Guess all that's left to be seen is if my new cactus or I wither first.
So sleep now. Tomorrow: make appointments, class, work, meeting, homework, ALINCA, Late Night, and please Goddess, a bit of alcohol to finish off the night.
P.S. While I am aware I am fortunate compared to many people, I can't bring myself to appreciate that fact. Another item to add to the list of failures.